How significant

A drop of water scurrying down a path with all his might. Wanting to be the first, wanting to beat the rest. Down a path carved by those before him.



How significant can this insignificant be?

Home

Will be taking the 1530 hrs bus back to kl. Estimate to arrive at about 1930 hrs. Damn i cant wait to be back!

~Home Sweet Home~

THANK YOU

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Today is the 24th of september, another person's birthday somewhere. 38 minutes ago at my watch was my birthday and although it's much a cause celebre` last time-well as recent as last yr-, this time i wanted it to be different.

Call me crazy, call me blind but i had no intention of celebrating my birthday this year which explains why i didnt tell anyone in my school bout it, not a hint not a whisper. This feeling of vacuity although ephemeral has not left me yet eventhough i've exhausted much energy in trying to banish it.

I've acted as normal as possible, bringing myself about like it's just another ordinary day eventhough, that in my head the words "IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY" kept on blaring and blaring.

And i succeeded!

Alas, who would've though chris' call would lead my friends to suspect there is smth on today. I had nowhere to run, lecturer was in and he was gonna start the class. I didnt realize i said that many thanks which led to tonite.

My friends were acting normal after that and i didnt suspect that they suspected smth was amiss.

Till...

Till it was 1930hrs when i went to the cafe to grab some grub. Random ppl wished me happy birthday and when i inquire how they knew,:

xxx: Hey, Happy birthday, it's your birthday today rite?
me : *thinks to self* HOW THE HECK U KNOW?
me : * smiles... hahaha, yea! How did u know?
xxx: Oh, civil fellas told me!
me : *thinks to self*Oh crap, they know!!
me : Yea thanx ya. Bye!

I went on to hv my dinner with jia hui and head on back to my room with no particular incident. Then came a msg from teik tzuan saying to go to the cafe later at 11.30 to discuss maths. WTH, must discuss maths so late?

Anyway that time came and went but at 11.40 teikz finally called to go. Oh, before i left, my roommate abruptly left the room without saying anything and that increased my suspicion that smth was up. And when i met teikz, he wasnt carrying any maths or stuff and when i asked him bout it he said he gave to clement who stays in a block 400 metres away. Good job in increasing my suspicion yet again.

When i met my assignment group, they werent doing maths! They were holding geology papers, some list and some other random papers. WHAT HAPPENED TO MATHS? They then started saying things which confirm 100% that there were ppl behind the basin. *Sry, much experience in trying to surprise ppl*

But boy oh boy was i surprised! Almost my whole school came for my cause celebre` which i didnt even wanted them to know! 30 maybe more of them took time off from studying for tmrw's tests to hide behind that wall of basin to surprise me with a cake and which is more important to me, their presence!

I was really touched, but i gotta defend myself here. I WASNT GONNA CRY! I was very touched tho and very happy too. =)

They all sang happy birthday and made my nose eat cake. I asked my nose if he liked it and wth, he told me he enjoyed every bit of it. Should i start stuffing my nose with cake now? Well it's payback time since i hv a rule that if i get creamed, im gonna get as many ppl creamed as well. I tried to chase but damn legs wouldnt run so i got only a handful. =(

I promise more next year!

Seriously, forcing me to give a speech is like digging ur own grave. I could go on and on even after you guys applaud to ask me to shut up and i can still go on. But i kept it short, events like this are not for lengthy speeches and all you guys hv to hear is my voice of appreciation and joy that my nose could eat cake.

I found out later that my group of friends took the trouble to call yee hui -who didnt get back to them-. Psst, clement.. she prolly didnt know either! After that they called a senior to check the list for my ic to confirm. And confirm they did at 1600 hrs. I only knows you guys for what, 2 months? And you guys went through all that trouble to celebrate my birthday which i didnt even wanted to be known? I didnt expect it! I hv 10 brothers which i went through thick and thin with and i dont even expect them to rmbr, altho most of them did! =) What hv i done to deserve this? What hv i done to deserve the company of all of you tonite? Well, i guess i must've done smth rite. XD

Im EFF-ING TOUCHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last words of thanks and appreciation from me to all of you for making my last 10 minutes imprinted in my head forever. Thank you.

Oh and chris, thank you for your call. =)

As long...

Man utd 0-0 Villareal!

Damn it, 20 over shots by man utd but they just didnt hv that finishing touch to get a goal. But it was a far greater game than the one they played against liverpool.

Enjoyed the game much for with it came much excitement which could not hv been found anywhere else nearby -.-. So i went to bed at 5 and woke up at 7 for a 2 hrs maths lecture. How wonderfully dreamy it was. Dozed away half the lecture and the other half where my eyes were actually open i couldnt figure out what that stupid clerk was trying to teach. Complex fourier series, tsk... eat my shorts!!!!

BUT IT WAS WORTH IT AND I'LL DO IT AGAIN, as long as i hv company to do it with me. Damn

Fanatic?Me?

Me and a group of friends suddenly had this bright idea of watching Man Utd vs Villarreal later at 0245hrs.

If i were gonna tell me friends back in kl that i've been watching and following man utd football matches lately they'll coherently in one voice shout FUCK OFF.

And i dont blame them, back in kl i didnt had the time or the will to get my ass off the comp or rather away from DOTA or SC but when im stuck in this kampung with no games to play, watching football is a Godsent activity.

Anyway, IT IS at 0245 hrs and i've got class at 0800hrs tmrw which i will not be missing. Besides im not really sure if my friends could get up to watch the match later. I'll be waiting to see if they do.

With powderful england comes powderful responsibilities

My curiculum is england i mean english based where all lectures are SUPPOSED to be taught in english.

Teacher : He is or he are an a$$hole?

But then since i live in malaysia where the words 'supposed' or 'must' can be purposefully mistaken for 'apa pun boleh la' and 'tak semestinya' there aint no surprise for u to hear me rant bout lecturers handling lessons in BM.



I mean, WHAT THE FUCK man, u're allowed to teach tertiary edu lvl yet u cant speak in english and hv to handle a supposingly english-based lecture in bm becoz for the past 20 yrs all u were doing was screwing ass and reading that green book of urs.

Tak kisahlah, janji rock!

I hv no respect for those lecturers for not only they cant teach that well they cant even speak english! Are you even qualified to teach me? If i formulate an argument would u give me a zero in my final paper just becoz u dont understand what i said since all u know is !n$ya:ah?


There was this one lecturer who said outright that his english isnt that good so he'll hv to mix with bm. Hey, im cool with that even tho 60% of the time he was speaking in bm and those time i really wanted to choke his neck and step on his face but since it was mechanics and formulas count more than fancy words... i could bear that much more.


But then there are lecturers who used 100% bm like my recent maths lecturer and what a bitch she is. I called her a clerk becoz she doesnt even know how to use powerpoint and only uses Words for her lectuers. (Wait a min, wouldnt that disqualify her as a clerk?) Altho maths are mostly bout formulas but the explanation of how to use it is crucial to my understanding else all i'll be doing is memorizing those damn formulas becoz my clerk-lecturer's dont know her england!


Seriously, i didnt know APEX means u dont hv to speak english!(What apex?)


How is it possible that after living for 20 to god knows how long u've been living under a rock years that you are still unable to speak english? And please dont go justifying u're inability by saying that we are malaysians living in malaysia which is why we need to speak malay. Take that crap and shove it up your ass you hedonistic racist asshole.

You hv a responsibility to educate but an even greated responsibility to educate in english to prepare us for the market which is mostly english speaking since we cant rely on the eff-ing government to sponsor us for life becoz i aint got no fucking abdullah behind my name. You aint qualified to teach me.

i love you too.

Okay, am feeling way much better after ranting. Wanted to type this a few days back but couldnt find the time. My next post will be bout hypocritical assholes who cant speak english to save their skins yet still wants to ridicule others or try to since....

Hmm..

I actually hv my variasiswa performance vid with me now. Just got it yesterday and am figuring if i really want to upload it. SO yea....

Whats more..

Whats more tiring than doing chin ups?
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Doing the damn laundry!!!!!!!





Now if only...

..there's a FREE washing machine.

Controversy

Avril Lavigne Concert Poster

DRAMA! Drama!Drama!

So after getting the green light from the malaysian CABINET (u will think our government has better things to do than mulling over concerts, but then again look under sodomy.) to hold her Asian Kick-off tour in KUALA LUMPUR, here comes another controversy.

click HERE to read

SO It seems that our PAS -yea good job to u fuckers who voted for them hoping they would change their conservative view just for Mr. Sodomy- has decided to hold a protest against the concert on friday after failing to get it cancelled for good!

Boy i know they live off the government and have nthg better to do when it's not the harvesting season but damn staging protest is a real smart move. Choosing to ignore the protest will ensure they lose out the malay votes for the next election for failing to care bout their 'views' but choosing to appease them and cancel the concert will frighten away potential performers in the future.

Nevertheless, basing their argument on that this concert WEAKENS them morally and mentally is plain bullshit to me. U guys are the ones with FOUR wives man. You really wanna talk bout weakness?

WEAK NOOB!!!!

I am seriously wondering what's going inside their head when they deem it morally and mentally damaging, i mean it's JUST A CONCERT!! Maybe they're afraid she'll dress up too nicely and look too sexy

Is this too sexy?

Im sure u even want to make her ur wife, u hedonistic asses!

that every guy or lesbian will start touching themselves or worse.... * jeng jeng jeng...*

Look at the position of the hand!

Okay if even statues start masturbating to her then what more can mentally and morally 'weakened' guys do rite? I mean it's not like they dont do it over the internet already.. =X =X

Tua tao, no surprise if it's u saying it. XD

So to those conservative PAS assholes who hv nthg better to do, GO READ UR GREEN BOOK and pray 5 times an hour a day everyday till the concert is over. Then go and harvest ur damn padi fields and earn some money for urself and not always live off the damn government.

Or maybe we can just have Avril looking like this:

...jeng jeng jeng...

Tell me..

Am i stupid?

What is the world turning into?

Sometimes i wonder what our world is turning into. We have terrorist terrorizing the world and Russia is rising up again.

God Bless us all!

Now we even hv a Hooker jumping the pole vault! And on top of that we hv MAGGI doing the long jump. Man i always knew there was smth to those maggi mee but damn it winning a gold medal in long jump is quite a feat.

Why so seriousss?

Why so seriousss? LETS PUT A SMILE ON THAT FACE!

So i went to watch dark knight just now at [GSC Times Square] <---- plz take note!
It was a blardy good movie and very interesting but only up to a point before the screen went dark but the sound just kept on playing.

It happened not once not twice but THREE damn times and that really spoiled the whole idea of ENJOYING a good movie. On top of that my roommate from Kuching was watching with me and it sure as hell wasnt a good introduction of how good GSC @ Kl really is isnt it?

Yes we did get a refund but damn it i wanna finish Dark Knight! The movie that every1 else wacthed and enjoyed!!!!! GSC Times Square surely was a party pooper. It will nvr earn my money from today onwards!

~Put a smile on my face~ bitch

BACK

I AM BACK!!!!!!! RAWR

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Dukacita dimaklumkan

Okay so i finally got the long awaited text msg which came today at 0934 but which i only noticed at 1430.... Phone was on silent! Anyway, "Dukacita dimaklumkan behawa permohonan pinjaman anda telah ditolak disebabkan alasan yang tertera didalam surat penolakan". I was expecting the wage shit to be the cause but when i opened the 'Decline Letter' and read it i couldnt help but laugh at myself.... for being so damn eff-ing STUPID!!!!!

I thought i already had an SSPN acc since when i opened a CIMB bank acc that bitch asked me if i wanted an acc for the uni and i remembered saying YES!

On a cheerier note, will be going back this week!! WOOOTz. 2 more days of class then im done, through! Settled!.......before i come back to sit for 3 tests. -.-

Yo yo Check Out The Dancer in Da House~

Was kinda busy last week because of 'Variasiswa'. It's actually a competition between all 12 hostels of USM where each will hv to perform for 10 minutes. Participants can either do a sketch dance or whatever one can think of that suits the title "Mahasiswa Bersatu". So my desa(hostel) chosed to do a musical whereby we had traditional dances, modern dances and a lil short drama in between.

WE DIDNT WIN because the officials were all biased sonnuvabitches who only want their main campus' hostels to win. B!tch. Fourth place was all we managed!

Anyway, i performed..... k every1 u dont need to laugh to loud~i danced and acted for abit! XD Yeap, who would've guessed that i actually choreographed and danced a solo on stage for all to see! Hahahaha....

On another note, the non-existance of a camera has caused my blog to be rather wordly or words only -.- and i owe this to the fact that i dont hv enough money to get me self one! T.T

but i've applied for ptptn loan that if all goes well will provide me with 48k for 4 years. Alas, one of the damn criteria was that my parents wage needs to be less than 3k and altho i actually stated that it's 2.5k gross and 1.9k net, i found out i hv to provide their tax form and stuff when i submit the papers which will blast a hole so big thru my application i'll hv a stamp of TAK LAYAK on my forehead for all to see.

Adding to that my parents told me not to lie so im forced to key in their real wage but i did however take the liberty or saying my mom is a housewife! =D That should increase my chances... i hope.

Im hoping i that my application gets approved. I need that damn money!! Gotta get myself a backpack 1st of all then a camera, new earphones, a new phone, a MAC (bitches liks and chris got themselves 1 already T.T and they wanna talk bout being poor.) and......

It's gonna be announced on the 11th of august so lets all pray that my application will be approved before i GET BACK TO KL ON THE 15th OF AUGUST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ngek ngek ngek.... for a week before i head back to sit of tests! -.-

Of one or many?

Hmmm it seems that a few or maybe it's just one has taken an interest in spamming my blog. Please go and find smth more constructive to do. You can go study or you can try to earn money. You can go plant wheat or padi since thats like ur only capability or u can go out and beg with that fucked up face of urs. I dont care.. just drop dead from my blog. Thank you!

And if u're waiting for a response from me on the cbox then i suggest u pratice patience for:

FORTIS GUARD!
You have tried to access a web page which is in violation of your internet usage policy.
URL: www2.cbox.ws/box/?boxid=1202327&boxtag=1527&sec=main
Category: Web Chat

Go and hv ur fun u uneducated brat. =)

We were all....

I hv to wake up at 6 to attend some talk in the main campus which lasts till 4. Ceramah Budaya Akademik.. Wow. How nice! How Grand! How fucked up! 1 out of 500 and i got lucky, why cant i get as lucky when im buying toto damnnit?

Anyway, dad visited 2 days ago and brought me out for dinner! Seafood at bukit tambun which was D.I.R.T. cheap! 3 pax ordered 9 dishes and it came out to about RM99? Hmmm, i had *takes long breath* scallop, prawns, oysters, fish, shellfish, small octopus, and 2 plates of noodles. It was the only edible chinese meal i had since coming here.
Dad did not come empty handed thankfully. The most important thing he brought me was my sci calc. Surviving 3 weeks in an ENGINEERING campus w/o a calc was smth! And since i asked for another pillow, he got me 1 too and my scout shoes and my mom gave me lots of snacks and sweets. No complains there!

On another note, some of u might've known that i was asked to give a speech last friday nite. I had 2 days to prepare my speech and the only help i got was "Talk bout anything, talk bout the orientation." Dont feel like eff-ing any1 at midnite that time so i just accepted it. Anyway if u're interested to find out what's in my speech then read on else u can click the x. =)



A very good evening to the Honourable Dean of Civil School Engineering, , Deputy Dean of Graduate Studies and Research Professor Madya Dr. Badrul Hisham Abu Bakar, Lecturers, School Staff, Facilitators, seniors and fellow students. I, David Yap as representative of the yr 1 students am greatly honoured to be given the chance to speak on this historic event.
Ladies and gentleman, the Greek Historian, Herodotus once said, “ It is better to have a stout heart always and face our share of evils than to be ever fearing of what might happen” It is with these words in mind that I selected Universiti Sains Malaysia and look where I’m standing today!
First and foremost, we would like to extend a foreword of thanks and gratitude to the Honourable Dean and Deputy Dean(s), Chaiperson(s) and Chiefs of various bodies for gracing this event with their presence and also to the facilitators whom without which the events of the past week will not have happened.
We were taught on the first night to not only listen but to the pay attention to the words spoken to us and the lesson that I present to u today is to not see and accept right away what people want you to see but to able to think and decipher the bigger picture.
Ladies and Gentleman, we were all born engineers! Since the moment we were born, we were already building bridges. The very first bridge we constructed was the bridge to our mother’s heart and what a marvellous piece of engineering it was as it can only strengthen and will never crumble! Soft skills ladies and gentleman, is crucial in our life. How so? Please spend a moment to ponder my next question; how is friendship and relationship formed or maintained and what is their importance? Let not then the bridges we construct be made of straws that might crumble under the weight of a brick, for of all worldly possessions, a friend is the most precious. Let those bridges be like the one we formed with our mothers and let us wield this skill when we build physical bridges in the future!
Nevertheless, we cannot spend all of our time on building bridges and this is where time management sets in. I am lousy in managing my time, especially when im sleeping. Oftentimes I’ll just off the alarm and go back to sleep. On the contrary, I think the rest of you are already very adept in managing your time but for the past week, I believe we all have further honed our skill. With academic classes in the morning and assignments to juggle on top of having to attend orientation which lasts till midnight, good time management skills is vital to ensure that we are able to juggle between responsibilities without any neglect or sacrifice of either except for those who skip classes or orientation then they wouldn’t hv done much polishing. ;)
Ladies and gentlemen, Sustainability! A concept formulated essentially to conserve the environment but actually acts to harmonise things between nature and mankind. And although it is imperative, it is IMHO that harmony between mankind is far more important. We owe our very existence to a group of people who worked together to overcome all odds stacked against them by Mother Nature to not only live but to thrive and prosper. In this modern day, we are constantly thrust into groups and teams and I do not have to look far for an example, this orientation itself has 10 different groups! If members of a group could not reach an understanding, they can not work together. Then how can the team prosper and aim to achieve success? Congruently, every team requires one sole leader for too many cooks spoil the broth. However, that is not to say that team members need to follow exactly as they are told, for the leader is never always right. Team members are required to be active and to be able to use their own judgements on every matter. It is necessary to follow but it is more important to be able to lead when necessary.
I believe that I have overstayed my invitation and might have started to be a bore. But before I get carried off this stage, allow me to speak for all year 1 students that we are truly proud to be a member of this family and we promise that we will strive to our very best to achieve excellence. For we are usm and usm is us! Thank you and enjoy the evening.


The lesson that i presented was what i got during SR. We scouts know the lesson as the pen =).

You want my life?

It was the 28th of june but i hv no idea where i am! It damn right wasnt kl, for there werent enough tall wait a minute.. there aint no tall buildings to be seen! Eff-ing kampung. It was the 28th june and im registering into USM today!
What happened the night before, lets not talk bout it. The only thing was i crashed my car and it was badly damaged. Apparently the whole door has to be changed but while my mom was telling me that she wasnt angry. Not even a hint of anger or disappointment! Queer...very.
The first 3 nights were terrible! Horrendous! Suffering! Torturing!
I live in a 4 man room and it's HUGE. So huge that im running out of space to put my things! The only solace is that i hv only 2 other room mates which leaves 1 bed empty which means more space which actually means more cobwebs or insects which means that everytime i enter my room a flurry of activity greets me.
Talking bout insects, there's one we call 'cali'. It's shaped as an ant but it has wings and is striped red and black. The thing bout this 'cali' is that the liquid it squirts or emits when it's dead is corrosive to the skin. The sensation is akin to burning and if u touch the woud with ur hand then ur hand will get it too. I am so damn happy that i get to live in a 'cali' infested block. My board and wall already has 'cali' corpses.
THE HEAT CAN KILL. Well not directly. But it does get very hot somedays and since im a city boy i cant sleep when it gets too hot. Even with my clothes off and the fan running at a speed of 4 (5 is good but too noisy) i sometimes find it hard to fall asleep! Twice there was a power outage and yours truly woke up just in time to watch the fan stop spinning. Looking to his roommates, he marvels at their ability to sleep non-chalantly. Might they be feeling cold?
Heat is one thing having a short bed is another. Bed's suppose to be 6 ft but since im only 5 ft 10 and i dont think ive grown, there should be an excess of 2 inches rite? WRONG! My leg protrudes outward by at least a foot when i sleep and im forced to either sleep diagonally or with my head touching the damn wall which has a yellowish, black colour to it. Real clean!!
The best of which is having cold water. Yeap, cold water to drink, cold water to wash my face in and cold water to wash my balls when im already feeling cold! It's 7 in the eff-ing morning and when i raise my hand to turn on the heater it aint there! Every morning is an attack of conscience; " To go in or not to go in, that is the question!" Of coz every time i end up pushing myself into the shower and get it over with as quickly as possible.
But after a week, im already liking this place. No it doesnt hv hot chicks nor does it hv much entertainment but the surrounding and the atmosphere, it's smth that i feel is suited for me. I feel very much at home and i thank myself for choosing this place and i thank god for being able to get enrolled in here.

What's UR CGPA?

Thursday 03-07-08

After undergoing orientation for about a week, actually today’s just the 4^th day and tmrw will be the last; we finally have some free time to ourselves. We’ve been tortured with speeches and presentation in which some could really bore u to sleep! Then they did what normally would hv been done, introduce us newbies to our campus, stating how good, how grand the campus is. Really very much like how we did it in VI except that we were doing it to recruit boy scouts.

This orientation’s easy for me coz I’ve heard that it’s worse in other uni’s and besides I don’t think there’s anything that could be worse or best SR Month. The only thing I find dissatisfactory is the fact that there aint no hot water, I hv to do my own laundry, my beds so short my legs protrude over it and it’s curry…curry and more curry.

I am gonna tell you guys bout my living experience here but not yet! I’ll do it soon but for today I’ve smth to say\rant\emo about.

The people who come here most of them chose to be here because to them USM is truly one of the best universities in Malaysia. I did choose to be here but I wasn’t sure if I’ll get accepted. Getting in for me was a massive stroke of luck whereas they KNEW they’ll be stepping into this campus. They CGPA ranged from 3.5 to 4.0 except for a few specials who scored lower. And where do I stand? At the damn bottom!! I was forced to calculate my CGPA again and it’s a miserable 3.1. How the fuck did I even get accepted? DO I deserve to be in here?

I’m deeply embarrassed to talk bout my pointers but all I can do when asked is to eat my shame and swallow it into my gut and reply as non-chalantly as I possibly can and wait for their reaction to stay still for a moment before they try to change the topic. However, most do not ask bout my pointer.

Am I inferior to them? NO effing way! But do I feel inferior to them? I do. For the first time since the day I collected my results I can truly say that I regret. I might hv said it b4 but this time it’s lethal. Im asking myself right at this moment that if I wasn’t dota-ing so much and wasn’t so arrogant to forgo tuition for certain subjects might I hv performed better?

But it doesn’t really matter now does it? I’ve done what I’ve done and all I can do now is to live with it, live with my shame and regret until I am able to banish it from myself and turn a new leaf.