Quixotic

When everyone's expecting it, it's time to wonder "Should it be done?"

Captiva

Maybe in a little while eh?

Strong

Strong Lyrics

Sigh

Hv i already lost?

Play & Feed a hungry person!!

If you have tons of time which im sure u will in a few weeks why not do smth to help those who are less fortunate? As i was surfing through bbc.co.uk(which is linked), i stumbled across a website called freerice.


It's actually a website providing vocabulary game where u r tested on the meaning of the word given. A correct answer will donate 10 grains of rice to the UN WFP(World Food Program). A wrong answer, well makes ur next guess easier. As i was playing, in came a meme n i thought whaddaheck, i should, no, NEED to share this with all of you. Try to play it when u're free. World hunger is prominient if u read the news; esp in war torn countries and we should help out whenever we can. Besides, u get to broaden ur vocab while doing it! Astounding aint it? FreeRice


I've also linked it my blog n u can find it in the sidebar. Have fun!

Words... Where art thou'?

i am lousy, no... very lousy with words. Maybe it's becoz i am not used to it or im just not that into those grand big words. Nevertheless, as wide as my vocab may be, i still cant find the words to deliver what i want to say. Lol, words... they seem to disappear when i need them the most. Sigh!

Distance..

From the afar it's clear, as it drew near it became blurry.

Filial piety?

........

Or if he changes his mind from being a doctor to being a businessman then...

Transition metals

scandium - sons

Titanium - take

Vanadium - value

Chromium - concerning

Manganese - matters

Iron - in

Cobalt - chemistry

Nickel - n

Copper - country

Zinc - zest

Just created this bout 5 mins ago and i've managed to remember these stupid transition metals. Hopefully u ppl can make use of this. The last 2 seems to be a lil out of sync but i cant think of anything else.

After blogging that piece i cant help but think that i deviated from what i intended to write. And i hv not re-read what i wrote and will not do so now becoz i need my sleep. Comments are encouraged. =D

Religion

Religion is only an escape for the mind from the cruel realities of life. By believing in the existence of a greater power, we hope that things will change for the better and being armed with this believe, armed with hope, changes do come.

But is the change brought by a higher being or becoz we believed in the existence of God, and with that believe comes hope and when there's hope, we try our best to lift ourselves out of the bleakest moment. Am i doubting the existence of God? No, merely im just giving a diff point of argument.

There are things in which our minds will never be able to comprehend. Religion is one which the brightest scientist or the cleverest minds is unable to decipher. It is easy to disprove of the very existence of God but certain events seems to be so unexplainable that a higher force is no doubt in action. Luck maybe? But what defines luck? How does luck come about?

Is it possible that the monks, priest and books all lied and are just part of a conspiracy to segregrate the human population into groups? Or is religion a thing created by man for mankind? A creation to allow man to hv smth to fall back on when things are in the shitters.

The existence of God is as real as our minds let it to be. There is no scientific proof of It's existence and God dwells only in the minds of it's believers and It's presence felt by those who embrace It. What about atheist(s)? If God is said to be all loving and kind as preached by all religions then shouldnt It's presence be felt by the ones who doubt it's existence hence making them followers of a faith as well? But we dont see that do we?

Nevertheless, religion is for those who believe and believers hv faith. With faith comes hope and with hope, everything is possible.

If i can fall 2 storeys into a drain with my ass landing first, either im really lucky or my bone's tougher than steel. But i chose to believe that i am not on wheelchair today becoz my fall was broken not only by the hands of my 2 brothers but also becoz of a higher being.

Armed with hope, i believe nthg is impossible.

THANK YOU

Today was s'pose to be as uneventful as how the last few has been. Except for tuition, there aint no other plans than to TRY to study and play dota which i hv done as frequently as my back could allow me to for the pass week.

Talk about time wasting and i should prolly congratulate myself. I know im running short of time and blardy hell need all the time i can get to study but im not doing it. For the past week i've done nothing but play dota and indulge myself into the world of terrorism n counter-terrorism( No it's not fucking cs). I view myself with disgust and i hate myself for gaming but i didnt stop. I couldnt! I hv no fucking idea why everytime i sit and ready myself to study, i vanish as quickly as i came.

Anyway, tuition today was s'pose to be mundane..... I chose not to bring a bag instead carried my file, pencil box, ipod and phone. Tucked my wallet into my sole pocket and went to zemei's house. I didnt notice anything was amiss so i was happily waiting for time to fly pass.

Out of the blue came shouts from the outside and Mr Chee k.k. went to check it out. A group of 4-5 malay guys were out there and he 'coolly' walked away and called ze mei who in turn called me. Wtf? i dont hv any malay friends man.. why call me?

Apparently some asshole left his car keys in the keyhole of his red car which was parked a street away next to someone's house and these guys saw it, did not steal the asshole's car nor take anything that belongs to that asshole. I think that asshole's friggin lucky. Aint a group of malay guys normal mean trouble? ( i aint no racist but....)

So yea, as u would've guess that asshole is me! Seriously i wanted to belanja those guys mamak or smth coz under normal circumstances i think my car's already in thailand now. But that didnt come into my mind when i retrieved my key from them. I was so relieved that i stopped thinking for that 10 secs. I think i should've given them cash to go get themselves a drink. Heck, im fucking surprised and glad at the same time. I really should've expressed my gratitude but hey, if they were waiting for some form of token of appreciation from me then they wouldnt be that kind in the 1st place rite?

Im really happy that they were good kids and returned my car keys. Heck i think they would've went to a few houses before coming over to zemei's house since i dont think they know the red car belonged to an asshole who doesnt live in cheras and is only there becoz he has chem tuition in his friend's house. So yea.. anyway i hv to say THANK YOU, and i really appreciate what they did altho i did a blardy bad job of showing it to them.

If this were to happen again i think my car will seriously either be in thailand or already chopped up in some run down factory. Damn.

Once again, THANK YOU to that group of guys altho i dont think they'll ever be reading this....

Manifestation

Was it ever this hard? I...dont remember. I always thought that if it's true and if i take it to be real then it will be as i see it to be. The problem is getting to see it the same light, the same phase, the same picture. I guess that's harder than it seems coz to be able to convince another person take's alot of facts and truth and a whole lot of persuasion... n i aint those persuasive kind.
I might be getting it all wrong, and it might all backfire and burn me in my ass altho i hv to say, there is but a slim chance for that to happen. Nevertheless, smth might happen even if there's a low probability of it- the law of the unexpected happens-.
Things arent going the way i want it to go and im fizzling out faster than a flare. The only thing keeping me in would be...woud be...... what? Hahaha, i dont even fucking know what's keeping me in!! Damn.


Somehow, another part of me is saying that it's all in my head and the problem is non-existant. With conflicting conscience telling u 2 very different pov's is down right pissing off to say the least unless u're clear-headed enough to know that one's a fucker who's pulling your leg and the other ass-stabber is just filling u up with fake hopes n believe.

I think the problem is manifesting by itself...... crap

Fei por kai

This just came in

Mom : Let's go.
ME : Go where
Mom : fei por kai

............ It's a chicken rice shop k.

A fool

Weeee...... a Fool!

Bigger guns!

If this was my gun...


As i said i would, i went in guns ablazing alrite. But to my horror the enemy had bigger guns and shot me down like a lame-duck-bush wading in open waters. I had expected the battle to be tough but my preparations were weak altho i had much vigour. I think it's time for retrospect and to review what went wrong.

Tmrw will be the hardest battle yet and i go in with a weary heart. I do not expect to win this battle or even to force a draw but in the end, i might learn smth from this loss.

And ode i made, and that ode i will keep..... but an ode to what?


This was theirs... =S

'Hot' Feeling

Hmmmm, i wasnt feeling alrite after school but i thought it'll be gone when my dreams appear. Alas, my dreams would not even come to me. My mind wouldnt stop working and i couldnt get any sleep. My head begins to ache n i know this is gonna be bad. I dont hv headaches!

Hahaha... i tried to shrug it off but the pain is undismissable. I opted to just lay flat on my bed till it gets better but it wouldn't abet. Then came a sudden feeling. A rather weird one which i cant quite explain. It's like a sudden heighten of senses, minus the adrenaline.

After 4 and 1\2 eff-ing hours my stomach realised that it doesnt approve of of the packet of nasi lemak i took in the morning. If it was to come out through the lower hole im cool with it, even if it leaves a 'hot' feelng around the region i'll accept it but to exit through the same hole it went in is rather pissing off. It's like shoving ur finger up someone's ass then... eh wait, isnt that exiting thru the same hole it went in too? Crap, the headache's messing with me!

Headache, headache and im changing myself to stand alone in your eyes. Sigh, Physics, physics.... more headache!!!!

A joke

It was a joke taken seriously by both that by the time they realized it. It had all but turned sour. It was not meant be this way he admittely sadly, a gamble he took which did not turn out the way he meant it be. His 'act'.. he cannot put it up much longer i think. Every minute that passes strikes a blow so hard that he's unable to fend it off. I think it might come undone... his 'act' might be undone. And when it does, what will be of him? I wonder.....

It was never meant to turn out this way. He says he regrets his, but to turn back now... he cant. He cant bring himself to becoz.... i dont know why he cant. It's just that he cant, or maybe he cant bring himself to.
Sigh, how foolish.... how dumb. But maybe something good will come from it. I hope it does, i hope for him and i hope for them both that it does!

Gung-ho

Trials are well.. in about 8 hours and seriously im not fully prepared for it. Altho my mind has ways of deceiving myself that i am prepared for it. It's like i seem to know most of the stuff but when i wield the thing-stronger-than-the-sword those things just escapes my mind leaving it......BLANK!!!

Anyway, i hv to admit i've put in quite an amount of effort to study lately and altho i'll most prolly screw up my trials i am looking forward to the results. It would be a good ruler to examine my position and decide how much the urge to succeed is within me and how much more effort i can put in to achieve the desired results.

It might be hard... no eff-ing joke... but im going in guns ablazing this time!!

lazy

Today is one of those days where i just want to do nothing but be lazy. Hahaha

I know i cant afford that but oh well.. just 5 more mins!