Sunday, October 28, 2007
Religion
Religion is only an escape for the mind from the cruel realities of life. By believing in the existence of a greater power, we hope that things will change for the better and being armed with this believe, armed with hope, changes do come.
But is the change brought by a higher being or becoz we believed in the existence of God, and with that believe comes hope and when there's hope, we try our best to lift ourselves out of the bleakest moment. Am i doubting the existence of God? No, merely im just giving a diff point of argument.
There are things in which our minds will never be able to comprehend. Religion is one which the brightest scientist or the cleverest minds is unable to decipher. It is easy to disprove of the very existence of God but certain events seems to be so unexplainable that a higher force is no doubt in action. Luck maybe? But what defines luck? How does luck come about?
Is it possible that the monks, priest and books all lied and are just part of a conspiracy to segregrate the human population into groups? Or is religion a thing created by man for mankind? A creation to allow man to hv smth to fall back on when things are in the shitters.
The existence of God is as real as our minds let it to be. There is no scientific proof of It's existence and God dwells only in the minds of it's believers and It's presence felt by those who embrace It. What about atheist(s)? If God is said to be all loving and kind as preached by all religions then shouldnt It's presence be felt by the ones who doubt it's existence hence making them followers of a faith as well? But we dont see that do we?
Nevertheless, religion is for those who believe and believers hv faith. With faith comes hope and with hope, everything is possible.
If i can fall 2 storeys into a drain with my ass landing first, either im really lucky or my bone's tougher than steel. But i chose to believe that i am not on wheelchair today becoz my fall was broken not only by the hands of my 2 brothers but also becoz of a higher being.
Armed with hope, i believe nthg is impossible.
But is the change brought by a higher being or becoz we believed in the existence of God, and with that believe comes hope and when there's hope, we try our best to lift ourselves out of the bleakest moment. Am i doubting the existence of God? No, merely im just giving a diff point of argument.
There are things in which our minds will never be able to comprehend. Religion is one which the brightest scientist or the cleverest minds is unable to decipher. It is easy to disprove of the very existence of God but certain events seems to be so unexplainable that a higher force is no doubt in action. Luck maybe? But what defines luck? How does luck come about?
Is it possible that the monks, priest and books all lied and are just part of a conspiracy to segregrate the human population into groups? Or is religion a thing created by man for mankind? A creation to allow man to hv smth to fall back on when things are in the shitters.
The existence of God is as real as our minds let it to be. There is no scientific proof of It's existence and God dwells only in the minds of it's believers and It's presence felt by those who embrace It. What about atheist(s)? If God is said to be all loving and kind as preached by all religions then shouldnt It's presence be felt by the ones who doubt it's existence hence making them followers of a faith as well? But we dont see that do we?
Nevertheless, religion is for those who believe and believers hv faith. With faith comes hope and with hope, everything is possible.
If i can fall 2 storeys into a drain with my ass landing first, either im really lucky or my bone's tougher than steel. But i chose to believe that i am not on wheelchair today becoz my fall was broken not only by the hands of my 2 brothers but also becoz of a higher being.
Armed with hope, i believe nthg is impossible.
Friday, October 19, 2007
THANK YOU
Today was s'pose to be as uneventful as how the last few has been. Except for tuition, there aint no other plans than to TRY to study and play dota which i hv done as frequently as my back could allow me to for the pass week.
Talk about time wasting and i should prolly congratulate myself. I know im running short of time and blardy hell need all the time i can get to study but im not doing it. For the past week i've done nothing but play dota and indulge myself into the world of terrorism n counter-terrorism( No it's not fucking cs). I view myself with disgust and i hate myself for gaming but i didnt stop. I couldnt! I hv no fucking idea why everytime i sit and ready myself to study, i vanish as quickly as i came.
Anyway, tuition today was s'pose to be mundane..... I chose not to bring a bag instead carried my file, pencil box, ipod and phone. Tucked my wallet into my sole pocket and went to zemei's house. I didnt notice anything was amiss so i was happily waiting for time to fly pass.
Out of the blue came shouts from the outside and Mr Chee k.k. went to check it out. A group of 4-5 malay guys were out there and he 'coolly' walked away and called ze mei who in turn called me. Wtf? i dont hv any malay friends man.. why call me?
Apparently some asshole left his car keys in the keyhole of his red car which was parked a street away next to someone's house and these guys saw it, did not steal the asshole's car nor take anything that belongs to that asshole. I think that asshole's friggin lucky. Aint a group of malay guys normal mean trouble? ( i aint no racist but....)
So yea, as u would've guess that asshole is me! Seriously i wanted to belanja those guys mamak or smth coz under normal circumstances i think my car's already in thailand now. But that didnt come into my mind when i retrieved my key from them. I was so relieved that i stopped thinking for that 10 secs. I think i should've given them cash to go get themselves a drink. Heck, im fucking surprised and glad at the same time. I really should've expressed my gratitude but hey, if they were waiting for some form of token of appreciation from me then they wouldnt be that kind in the 1st place rite?
Im really happy that they were good kids and returned my car keys. Heck i think they would've went to a few houses before coming over to zemei's house since i dont think they know the red car belonged to an asshole who doesnt live in cheras and is only there becoz he has chem tuition in his friend's house. So yea.. anyway i hv to say THANK YOU, and i really appreciate what they did altho i did a blardy bad job of showing it to them.
If this were to happen again i think my car will seriously either be in thailand or already chopped up in some run down factory. Damn.
Once again, THANK YOU to that group of guys altho i dont think they'll ever be reading this....
Talk about time wasting and i should prolly congratulate myself. I know im running short of time and blardy hell need all the time i can get to study but im not doing it. For the past week i've done nothing but play dota and indulge myself into the world of terrorism n counter-terrorism( No it's not fucking cs). I view myself with disgust and i hate myself for gaming but i didnt stop. I couldnt! I hv no fucking idea why everytime i sit and ready myself to study, i vanish as quickly as i came.
Anyway, tuition today was s'pose to be mundane..... I chose not to bring a bag instead carried my file, pencil box, ipod and phone. Tucked my wallet into my sole pocket and went to zemei's house. I didnt notice anything was amiss so i was happily waiting for time to fly pass.
Out of the blue came shouts from the outside and Mr Chee k.k. went to check it out. A group of 4-5 malay guys were out there and he 'coolly' walked away and called ze mei who in turn called me. Wtf? i dont hv any malay friends man.. why call me?
Apparently some asshole left his car keys in the keyhole of his red car which was parked a street away next to someone's house and these guys saw it, did not steal the asshole's car nor take anything that belongs to that asshole. I think that asshole's friggin lucky. Aint a group of malay guys normal mean trouble? ( i aint no racist but....)
So yea, as u would've guess that asshole is me! Seriously i wanted to belanja those guys mamak or smth coz under normal circumstances i think my car's already in thailand now. But that didnt come into my mind when i retrieved my key from them. I was so relieved that i stopped thinking for that 10 secs. I think i should've given them cash to go get themselves a drink. Heck, im fucking surprised and glad at the same time. I really should've expressed my gratitude but hey, if they were waiting for some form of token of appreciation from me then they wouldnt be that kind in the 1st place rite?
Im really happy that they were good kids and returned my car keys. Heck i think they would've went to a few houses before coming over to zemei's house since i dont think they know the red car belonged to an asshole who doesnt live in cheras and is only there becoz he has chem tuition in his friend's house. So yea.. anyway i hv to say THANK YOU, and i really appreciate what they did altho i did a blardy bad job of showing it to them.
If this were to happen again i think my car will seriously either be in thailand or already chopped up in some run down factory. Damn.
Once again, THANK YOU to that group of guys altho i dont think they'll ever be reading this....
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Manifestation
Was it ever this hard? I...dont remember. I always thought that if it's true and if i take it to be real then it will be as i see it to be. The problem is getting to see it the same light, the same phase, the same picture. I guess that's harder than it seems coz to be able to convince another person take's alot of facts and truth and a whole lot of persuasion... n i aint those persuasive kind.
I might be getting it all wrong, and it might all backfire and burn me in my ass altho i hv to say, there is but a slim chance for that to happen. Nevertheless, smth might happen even if there's a low probability of it- the law of the unexpected happens-.
Things arent going the way i want it to go and im fizzling out faster than a flare. The only thing keeping me in would be...woud be...... what? Hahaha, i dont even fucking know what's keeping me in!! Damn.
Somehow, another part of me is saying that it's all in my head and the problem is non-existant. With conflicting conscience telling u 2 very different pov's is down right pissing off to say the least unless u're clear-headed enough to know that one's a fucker who's pulling your leg and the other ass-stabber is just filling u up with fake hopes n believe.
I think the problem is manifesting by itself...... crap
I might be getting it all wrong, and it might all backfire and burn me in my ass altho i hv to say, there is but a slim chance for that to happen. Nevertheless, smth might happen even if there's a low probability of it- the law of the unexpected happens-.
Things arent going the way i want it to go and im fizzling out faster than a flare. The only thing keeping me in would be...woud be...... what? Hahaha, i dont even fucking know what's keeping me in!! Damn.
Somehow, another part of me is saying that it's all in my head and the problem is non-existant. With conflicting conscience telling u 2 very different pov's is down right pissing off to say the least unless u're clear-headed enough to know that one's a fucker who's pulling your leg and the other ass-stabber is just filling u up with fake hopes n believe.
I think the problem is manifesting by itself...... crap
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Fei por kai
This just came in
Mom : Let's go.
ME : Go where
Mom : fei por kai
............ It's a chicken rice shop k.
Mom : Let's go.
ME : Go where
Mom : fei por kai
............ It's a chicken rice shop k.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Bigger guns!
If this was my gun...
As i said i would, i went in guns ablazing alrite. But to my horror the enemy had bigger guns and shot me down like a lame-duck-bush wading in open waters. I had expected the battle to be tough but my preparations were weak altho i had much vigour. I think it's time for retrospect and to review what went wrong.
Tmrw will be the hardest battle yet and i go in with a weary heart. I do not expect to win this battle or even to force a draw but in the end, i might learn smth from this loss.
And ode i made, and that ode i will keep..... but an ode to what?
This was theirs... =S
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
'Hot' Feeling
Hmmmm, i wasnt feeling alrite after school but i thought it'll be gone when my dreams appear. Alas, my dreams would not even come to me. My mind wouldnt stop working and i couldnt get any sleep. My head begins to ache n i know this is gonna be bad. I dont hv headaches!
Hahaha... i tried to shrug it off but the pain is undismissable. I opted to just lay flat on my bed till it gets better but it wouldn't abet. Then came a sudden feeling. A rather weird one which i cant quite explain. It's like a sudden heighten of senses, minus the adrenaline.
After 4 and 1\2 eff-ing hours my stomach realised that it doesnt approve of of the packet of nasi lemak i took in the morning. If it was to come out through the lower hole im cool with it, even if it leaves a 'hot' feelng around the region i'll accept it but to exit through the same hole it went in is rather pissing off. It's like shoving ur finger up someone's ass then... eh wait, isnt that exiting thru the same hole it went in too? Crap, the headache's messing with me!
Headache, headache and im changing myself to stand alone in your eyes. Sigh, Physics, physics.... more headache!!!!
Hahaha... i tried to shrug it off but the pain is undismissable. I opted to just lay flat on my bed till it gets better but it wouldn't abet. Then came a sudden feeling. A rather weird one which i cant quite explain. It's like a sudden heighten of senses, minus the adrenaline.
After 4 and 1\2 eff-ing hours my stomach realised that it doesnt approve of of the packet of nasi lemak i took in the morning. If it was to come out through the lower hole im cool with it, even if it leaves a 'hot' feelng around the region i'll accept it but to exit through the same hole it went in is rather pissing off. It's like shoving ur finger up someone's ass then... eh wait, isnt that exiting thru the same hole it went in too? Crap, the headache's messing with me!
Headache, headache and im changing myself to stand alone in your eyes. Sigh, Physics, physics.... more headache!!!!
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