Just got back from China about a day or 2 ago. Visited Lijang, Dali then Kunming. It wasnt very fun but the sights were pretty breathtaking. Rising mountains with winding rivers, Clouds blanketing the hills or seemingly to scurry down the mountainside.

Another xmas spent somewhere other than where i want to be. Oh wells, will upload the pics soon as soon as i can get my ass off to get the comp fixed.

Out of Boredom

Today this so extremely boring and uneventful. Work was boring and dull, minus the fact that i was happy in the morning with my hopes of going home early today raised by the con my parents played on me by saying we will go home early today. We did actually.. by half n hour!


Will be leaving for the airport in bout 5-6 hrs for the flight to some remote area of China. As boring as i expect it to be, im still exhilarated by the views it will bring me. The terrain of remote china with it's winding rivers n mountainous peaks. I dont know what to expect since i dont even know where im heading but becoz im in the dark, the anticipation is strong. I just hope i dont get disappointed!!


The boredom is getting to me and im going crazier by the minute plus the fact that im being made to wait, not only now but the whole day today. The wait is getting on my nerves and i dont know why it is.

Sigh, another xmas not spent here. Hopefully this xmas will be a memorable one. Merry Xmas to all!!

Virtue

Patience is a virtue that not many possess. To be able to control your thoughts and remain patient while you couldnt wait much longer is a skill which i try hard to acquire.
Acquiring a certain skill requires much time and devotion to fully master it. Like a sportsman trains daily to achieve optimum performance, patience is smth which there is no training regime for one to follow. Thus, is it safe to say that patience is only had by the best man?
To be impetous in a situation is non necessarily fool-hardy but rushing into a certain situation without much preparation is akin to rushing into battle without any armour and equipment. Defeat is a certainty.
Nevertheless, once a decision is made, it is detrimental for one to follow up with actions to supplement that decision and to achieve the best results as circumstances permit.
A wise man will sit and wait to get a clearer picture, but delay might actually distraught his plans. A brave man who is also wise will chance upon that opportunity and act according to circumstance. Defeat is only a PROBABILITY but so is victory. As the saying goes, "The greater the risk, the greater the rewards."
Alas, i hv tried to be patient. I can be very patient if that virtue lies with me. But alas, i am devoid of it sometimes and i often act without thinking much. I do not lament my situation but i just want to say i did try to be patient alas, failed miserably in trying to suppressing it.

Against All Odds

Herodotus once said "It's better to have a stout heart always and face your share of evils, than to be always fearing what would happen."

I believe that even against the odds that one should keep on going. Things might seem to be overwhelming but things will work out if you want it to. Strategist plans and the general executes. Nevertheless, at times of war, deception and cunning are omnipresent and a wise general prepares for the unseen and thinks the unthinkable.

When he loses a battle, he loses not only men but also his pride. A man without pride is like a lion without teeth. He has to regain he pride he lost in the battlefield. His flanks are exposed and his reinforcements nowhere to be seen, what does one do when outnumbered 10 to 1 and defeat an almost certainty?

Your adversary does not care how low u hv succumbed or how distraught u are. He cares only for himself and with victory almost at hand he is beaming with arrogance. I swallow what little pride left and spat it out together with my heart. I could not bring myself to look at my adversary in the eye. The very sight disheartens me and i cannot let my morale dissipate. I need to and i will fight till my adversary retreats, i will fight even when my spear is blunted and my shield broken. Perhaps then i could win you over.

Tale

Everyone wants a fairtytale ending. How do you wants yours to be?

Light at the end of the tunnel eh?

Currently solving a problem and it will be solved now. However it turn out, it definitely will be better

Move Forth!

Things that are meant to happen will happen no matter how much effort we pour into avoiding it. That is to say if you believe in things cosmic and celestial, we will call it destiny. However, altho i believe in those, i believe too that ones life lies in ones hand and how it's shaped is how you mould it.
You hv the power to bring forth changes to your life. A beggar will certainly always be begging for he has neither ambition or is he willing to put a stop to his current 'job' and alleviate his distress.
Consigned to faith. Im not saying it's bullshit or horseshit. But like i stated early, ever man wields the power to his life. Ever heard of the phrase, "Be controlled, or be in control." Who else should be driver driving the car of life but you?
When faced with hardship and despair, would you just say im in deep shit and do nthg bout it or would you say im fucked but you try your best to find your way out of the quagmire? Im in one now and im doing the latter.
I always believe that one cannot lose a war without going into battle and that if you fought with your heart you will win the war. As i told my friend, that if he were to go into war thinking that he'll lose, he has already lost half the war. Be strong my friend and with hope nthg is impossible. The highest mountain will be scaled and the deepest secret discovered. Will zeal and courage, Move Forth and never give up!

Rivalry

=S

Im a mess! What needs to be done? What should be done?

Quixotic

When everyone's expecting it, it's time to wonder "Should it be done?"

Captiva

Maybe in a little while eh?

Strong

Strong Lyrics

Sigh

Hv i already lost?

Play & Feed a hungry person!!

If you have tons of time which im sure u will in a few weeks why not do smth to help those who are less fortunate? As i was surfing through bbc.co.uk(which is linked), i stumbled across a website called freerice.


It's actually a website providing vocabulary game where u r tested on the meaning of the word given. A correct answer will donate 10 grains of rice to the UN WFP(World Food Program). A wrong answer, well makes ur next guess easier. As i was playing, in came a meme n i thought whaddaheck, i should, no, NEED to share this with all of you. Try to play it when u're free. World hunger is prominient if u read the news; esp in war torn countries and we should help out whenever we can. Besides, u get to broaden ur vocab while doing it! Astounding aint it? FreeRice


I've also linked it my blog n u can find it in the sidebar. Have fun!

Words... Where art thou'?

i am lousy, no... very lousy with words. Maybe it's becoz i am not used to it or im just not that into those grand big words. Nevertheless, as wide as my vocab may be, i still cant find the words to deliver what i want to say. Lol, words... they seem to disappear when i need them the most. Sigh!

Distance..

From the afar it's clear, as it drew near it became blurry.

Filial piety?

........

Or if he changes his mind from being a doctor to being a businessman then...

Transition metals

scandium - sons

Titanium - take

Vanadium - value

Chromium - concerning

Manganese - matters

Iron - in

Cobalt - chemistry

Nickel - n

Copper - country

Zinc - zest

Just created this bout 5 mins ago and i've managed to remember these stupid transition metals. Hopefully u ppl can make use of this. The last 2 seems to be a lil out of sync but i cant think of anything else.

After blogging that piece i cant help but think that i deviated from what i intended to write. And i hv not re-read what i wrote and will not do so now becoz i need my sleep. Comments are encouraged. =D

Religion

Religion is only an escape for the mind from the cruel realities of life. By believing in the existence of a greater power, we hope that things will change for the better and being armed with this believe, armed with hope, changes do come.

But is the change brought by a higher being or becoz we believed in the existence of God, and with that believe comes hope and when there's hope, we try our best to lift ourselves out of the bleakest moment. Am i doubting the existence of God? No, merely im just giving a diff point of argument.

There are things in which our minds will never be able to comprehend. Religion is one which the brightest scientist or the cleverest minds is unable to decipher. It is easy to disprove of the very existence of God but certain events seems to be so unexplainable that a higher force is no doubt in action. Luck maybe? But what defines luck? How does luck come about?

Is it possible that the monks, priest and books all lied and are just part of a conspiracy to segregrate the human population into groups? Or is religion a thing created by man for mankind? A creation to allow man to hv smth to fall back on when things are in the shitters.

The existence of God is as real as our minds let it to be. There is no scientific proof of It's existence and God dwells only in the minds of it's believers and It's presence felt by those who embrace It. What about atheist(s)? If God is said to be all loving and kind as preached by all religions then shouldnt It's presence be felt by the ones who doubt it's existence hence making them followers of a faith as well? But we dont see that do we?

Nevertheless, religion is for those who believe and believers hv faith. With faith comes hope and with hope, everything is possible.

If i can fall 2 storeys into a drain with my ass landing first, either im really lucky or my bone's tougher than steel. But i chose to believe that i am not on wheelchair today becoz my fall was broken not only by the hands of my 2 brothers but also becoz of a higher being.

Armed with hope, i believe nthg is impossible.

THANK YOU

Today was s'pose to be as uneventful as how the last few has been. Except for tuition, there aint no other plans than to TRY to study and play dota which i hv done as frequently as my back could allow me to for the pass week.

Talk about time wasting and i should prolly congratulate myself. I know im running short of time and blardy hell need all the time i can get to study but im not doing it. For the past week i've done nothing but play dota and indulge myself into the world of terrorism n counter-terrorism( No it's not fucking cs). I view myself with disgust and i hate myself for gaming but i didnt stop. I couldnt! I hv no fucking idea why everytime i sit and ready myself to study, i vanish as quickly as i came.

Anyway, tuition today was s'pose to be mundane..... I chose not to bring a bag instead carried my file, pencil box, ipod and phone. Tucked my wallet into my sole pocket and went to zemei's house. I didnt notice anything was amiss so i was happily waiting for time to fly pass.

Out of the blue came shouts from the outside and Mr Chee k.k. went to check it out. A group of 4-5 malay guys were out there and he 'coolly' walked away and called ze mei who in turn called me. Wtf? i dont hv any malay friends man.. why call me?

Apparently some asshole left his car keys in the keyhole of his red car which was parked a street away next to someone's house and these guys saw it, did not steal the asshole's car nor take anything that belongs to that asshole. I think that asshole's friggin lucky. Aint a group of malay guys normal mean trouble? ( i aint no racist but....)

So yea, as u would've guess that asshole is me! Seriously i wanted to belanja those guys mamak or smth coz under normal circumstances i think my car's already in thailand now. But that didnt come into my mind when i retrieved my key from them. I was so relieved that i stopped thinking for that 10 secs. I think i should've given them cash to go get themselves a drink. Heck, im fucking surprised and glad at the same time. I really should've expressed my gratitude but hey, if they were waiting for some form of token of appreciation from me then they wouldnt be that kind in the 1st place rite?

Im really happy that they were good kids and returned my car keys. Heck i think they would've went to a few houses before coming over to zemei's house since i dont think they know the red car belonged to an asshole who doesnt live in cheras and is only there becoz he has chem tuition in his friend's house. So yea.. anyway i hv to say THANK YOU, and i really appreciate what they did altho i did a blardy bad job of showing it to them.

If this were to happen again i think my car will seriously either be in thailand or already chopped up in some run down factory. Damn.

Once again, THANK YOU to that group of guys altho i dont think they'll ever be reading this....

Manifestation

Was it ever this hard? I...dont remember. I always thought that if it's true and if i take it to be real then it will be as i see it to be. The problem is getting to see it the same light, the same phase, the same picture. I guess that's harder than it seems coz to be able to convince another person take's alot of facts and truth and a whole lot of persuasion... n i aint those persuasive kind.
I might be getting it all wrong, and it might all backfire and burn me in my ass altho i hv to say, there is but a slim chance for that to happen. Nevertheless, smth might happen even if there's a low probability of it- the law of the unexpected happens-.
Things arent going the way i want it to go and im fizzling out faster than a flare. The only thing keeping me in would be...woud be...... what? Hahaha, i dont even fucking know what's keeping me in!! Damn.


Somehow, another part of me is saying that it's all in my head and the problem is non-existant. With conflicting conscience telling u 2 very different pov's is down right pissing off to say the least unless u're clear-headed enough to know that one's a fucker who's pulling your leg and the other ass-stabber is just filling u up with fake hopes n believe.

I think the problem is manifesting by itself...... crap

Fei por kai

This just came in

Mom : Let's go.
ME : Go where
Mom : fei por kai

............ It's a chicken rice shop k.

A fool

Weeee...... a Fool!

Bigger guns!

If this was my gun...


As i said i would, i went in guns ablazing alrite. But to my horror the enemy had bigger guns and shot me down like a lame-duck-bush wading in open waters. I had expected the battle to be tough but my preparations were weak altho i had much vigour. I think it's time for retrospect and to review what went wrong.

Tmrw will be the hardest battle yet and i go in with a weary heart. I do not expect to win this battle or even to force a draw but in the end, i might learn smth from this loss.

And ode i made, and that ode i will keep..... but an ode to what?


This was theirs... =S

'Hot' Feeling

Hmmmm, i wasnt feeling alrite after school but i thought it'll be gone when my dreams appear. Alas, my dreams would not even come to me. My mind wouldnt stop working and i couldnt get any sleep. My head begins to ache n i know this is gonna be bad. I dont hv headaches!

Hahaha... i tried to shrug it off but the pain is undismissable. I opted to just lay flat on my bed till it gets better but it wouldn't abet. Then came a sudden feeling. A rather weird one which i cant quite explain. It's like a sudden heighten of senses, minus the adrenaline.

After 4 and 1\2 eff-ing hours my stomach realised that it doesnt approve of of the packet of nasi lemak i took in the morning. If it was to come out through the lower hole im cool with it, even if it leaves a 'hot' feelng around the region i'll accept it but to exit through the same hole it went in is rather pissing off. It's like shoving ur finger up someone's ass then... eh wait, isnt that exiting thru the same hole it went in too? Crap, the headache's messing with me!

Headache, headache and im changing myself to stand alone in your eyes. Sigh, Physics, physics.... more headache!!!!

A joke

It was a joke taken seriously by both that by the time they realized it. It had all but turned sour. It was not meant be this way he admittely sadly, a gamble he took which did not turn out the way he meant it be. His 'act'.. he cannot put it up much longer i think. Every minute that passes strikes a blow so hard that he's unable to fend it off. I think it might come undone... his 'act' might be undone. And when it does, what will be of him? I wonder.....

It was never meant to turn out this way. He says he regrets his, but to turn back now... he cant. He cant bring himself to becoz.... i dont know why he cant. It's just that he cant, or maybe he cant bring himself to.
Sigh, how foolish.... how dumb. But maybe something good will come from it. I hope it does, i hope for him and i hope for them both that it does!

Gung-ho

Trials are well.. in about 8 hours and seriously im not fully prepared for it. Altho my mind has ways of deceiving myself that i am prepared for it. It's like i seem to know most of the stuff but when i wield the thing-stronger-than-the-sword those things just escapes my mind leaving it......BLANK!!!

Anyway, i hv to admit i've put in quite an amount of effort to study lately and altho i'll most prolly screw up my trials i am looking forward to the results. It would be a good ruler to examine my position and decide how much the urge to succeed is within me and how much more effort i can put in to achieve the desired results.

It might be hard... no eff-ing joke... but im going in guns ablazing this time!!

lazy

Today is one of those days where i just want to do nothing but be lazy. Hahaha

I know i cant afford that but oh well.. just 5 more mins!

Anzeigen!! ANZEIGEN!!

Blog Updated!


Blog Anzeigen? Anyone knows what that means?

More balls and...

I always listen to my ipod in sch, esp in btw classes or while walking to the lab. On a recent day, while we were walking to the lab, i had my earphones plugged in. Walking down the stairs was our maths maestro, Mr thum! He approached me and the next conversation took place;

He : Take off ur earphones?
Me : Huh?
He : Take it off, what is that anyway?

*earphones out*
Me : Uhh, ipod?
He : Take it out, lemme see!

*oblige obediently*
He : Wah, how much?
Me : hesistates.... bout a thousand.
He : So expensive! Where u get the money from?
Me : *under my breath - drop from the sky*

~i said it albeit softly, more balls and i would've said it louder! XD~ He prolly heard me say smth coz..

He : WHAT ??
Me : oh, from my parents!
He : Oh, why ur parents so rich?
Me : Uhh, the kena lottery so bought me this.
He : So lucky? Never see i kena also
Me : * under breath - coz u're not lucky-*
He : Dont use this again..
Me : patronizingly agrees and we both walk off.

XD

In a lighter vain... or was it on? hmmmm

It's 0813 hours and i was due to be awake about 20 mins from now! Alas, my stomach was having a mini war within so i had to disperse off the dead corpse piling up. I want my sleep! But then, i aint all the sleepy no more nor do i require lots of sleep lately. It could be some underlying health problem... like depression from what i read in a passage in the muet test yesterday.

So maybe i should start acting all negative and shit.. and maybe be so extremely introvert that ppl will avoid me. That will definitely escalate the depressive disorder rite?

But then again, can depression be ever associated with me? No eff-ing A!!!!!

I think im gonna go have breakfast.. on the own since Miss lim dont wanna go out for lunch with me later!
It's just a street away and they serve delicious prawn mee.. RAWR! I only hope it's opened....

Byebye! Oh, and why im awake at this hour? extra classes that will superbly magnificiently incredibly increase my chance of getting good results.

~The End~

wtf?

I pop-ed open my friendster account after some inactivity and found... nthg new. As i was going to click log out after spending 10 secs scrolling down then up the page again, i clicked on the NEW Horoscope.

"You hv great patience, but someone attractive will put it to the test today. "

Fuck.

6th anniversary

What could've....


See how they all look like ahmadinejad? *think* *think*


I had meant to blog smth bout the 6 yrs anniversary of sept 11 but i went on to rambling smth bout green poo instead.

It's been 6 yrs since that tragedy which propelled the whole world into red alert on terrorism, the invasion of iraq and a close war with North korea. SO what instigated the attacks of civillians by the jihadist 6 yrs ago was just another extreme example of what idealogue and propaganda can do.



Look, i wouldnt say those bastards are dumb. Heck, would u have planned such an elaborate attack on innocent civilians without hurting the ruling government of the country of choice with civillian and innocent enough looking airplanes?

Dreamliner......

In fact, they knew that the US government will be tough as balls in cracking their brother-in-faith/arms after the attack. I cant help but think that it might've been a conspiracy by anti-saddam to bring that dictator down and to elevate their country's misfortune. Good job, ur country is currently facing sectarian war which might erupt into a full scale civil wars if u ppl dont start thinking with ur brain instead of the k[]r@n.

xxx: The 1st thing im gonna do when i learnt how to fly is....

The lost of thousands of innocent lives is a mournful lost and it could still be felt today. Even more by the family of the victims which all we-unaffected-beings could only sympathise but can do nthg about.

Boy : Dad, the building's vomitting sand!!

But, we are all doing great in that we lived with our heads up high and didnt let this tragedy consumes us all and this . could've well been the best tribute we can present to the victims.

Salutations to the heroes of that fateful day.

To qoute someone, " We will not allow terrorist to control our lives and it is our duty that we live like we did before and to continue living without the fear of being terrorise by terrorist!"

Crap.. too small!

This is more like it.
From the ashes, will rise the Freedom Tower.

Green pigment

I've been eating alot for the past 2 days. In fact i ate so much starch that the amount of glycogen in my body is in the excess that........

But i ate alot of veggies too, which are known to help smooth things out through the lower end. I ate so much that what comes out has a greenish pigment. I know, coz i wipe my ass with tissue and not wash it with water and the use of my left hand. Certainly, a shower right after that business.

Maybe it's the cili that's prohibiting the veggies from doing their job, but then again isnt cili a type of veggie too ? Bummer

Crazy

RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!

Complete World Domination!

Muahahahahahahah....

Nothing is impossible

You can do anything u set ur mind to.


Coz the only thing in this world that can stop u.... is urself.

Queue

The chinese(chinaman)... dont know how to queue up!
The cosmo and the universe has no lines... they are round..

So to cultivate the habit of lining up, on the 11th of every month, the chinese practice lining up. -Prep for olympics '08-
=S =S =S

The russians will get in line just to get to the head of the queue to see what the people are lining up for.
=S =S =S

I asked for it

8:53:48 PM] ØUîçKŠÏLVÆ®-: oh... ok... thanx
[8:53:58 PM] ØUîçKŠÏLVÆ®-: btw.. ur display pic's kinda... vain isnt it ?
[8:54:22 PM] cikgu vaz$: its only for people who undesrtand
[8:54:34 PM] cikgu vaz$: if they do not, then they think I am vain
[8:54:44 PM] ØUîçKŠÏLVÆ®-: \>.<
[8:54:46 PM] cikgu vaz$: I suppose you fall into the latter catgory
[8:54:48 PM] ØUîçKŠÏLVÆ®-: k.. i asked for that

Sigh

Everytime i try to pull away....

I gravitate back even stronger...

Studio pics

Okay, it's a lil late but i always keep to my promise. So these are the pics we took in the studio with our own camera. The ones that we paid the professional cameraman arent here yet... Actually it's ready but we need another 300 bucks to collect it. Can i start a fund & start collecting donations?

Plz promise that u will not drool all over the pics nor save it onto ur comp for future usage. No stalking any of my family members eithers! =P



Initiation


Mom n sis.. she's not wearing the RM 3 slippers anymore!

This is a one of the moment thingy.

Me n bro. I look way better.

Bro n sis..


Another...

With the old(s)

Look i even gripped my hands! VI style!!!

Family pic.

Another... see those teeth? Thank god u cant!


Last pic- minus the sweat absorbed.. if u could see the back.


The session was tiring but it had some funny moments. Dad's tummy was hindering him from hugging mom in a pose which the cameraman thought would be good. But too bad huh, it's like zaizai's in the middle.

Mom's face was directed towards the camera but he eyes were away somewhere.

Grandma was too busy trying to look good that she sometimes forget to smile.

Us kids well...... we're good! =)

Okay, so this thing bout a family photo i think every family has one. It isnt a necessity but it seems to be one. A picture of togetherness, of family ties, forever sworn into a picture normally hung onto the walls of the living room for all guest to see. A picture boasting that the family is as close as in the picture as if others are lacking. Is there point?

Yes, i believe that a picture is worth more than a thousand words...

To you

Sometimes, im just invisible..

~CONVO~

Bro's convo was on last thursday and i had to skip tuition for it. We coudlnt get in at least thats what we were told but it proved otherwise. IF we went a lil earlier, we would've gotten in with our parents. We being me, my sis and her bf.

These are the pics.

Since being in malaysia means everything official's gotta be in bm!

Mom did her hair the nite b4, colour and trimmed. P.s: Sis is wearing a RM 3 slipper!

Dad n bro ~ about the same size.

Mom n bro.

Us kids!

Notice how mature i look holding the booklet.

Group pic!

Bro n his 3 girlfriends. *ahem* best friends.

So that's all that im uploading for that day. Didnt take many pics coz it was scorching hot n the fats inside my dad tummy seems to be burning him inside out forcing us to leave early.

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I was hired today.. no wait, i wasnt paid, Forced to become a photographer for my bro who set up a date with my aunties and grandma to take pics. Yes, he's very proud of himself.

Pretty isnt she? almost 90!

Dashing..her i mean, not him!

She was unwilling to wear the cap n put up quite a fight..

"Tua Yee" Eldest aunt!

'Mor Yee'

Grandma! A fellow dragon with 2 of her great grandchildren.

'Ber yee"

Picture unperfect.. im not in it!!

Without the kids. Still unperfect!

Seemingly fat as ever!

"Mor yee with the scholar cap"

I just had to!!!

All smiles!


Grandma!!! Looking good!

I cam-whored. Sue me!

'Tai Yee' My bro's nanny when he was young!

Very much like his 2nd mom!

Grandma with the scholar cap!! XD

Just about rite!

Cousin brendan.

Okay.. time for candid pics!

Got whacked becoz of this pic.


Dreaming.... bout smth.

Listening to my bro while semi-posing.

Got whacked becoz of this too.


Gotta be The Best picture of The Day!! AND FINALLY ONE WITH ME IN IT!!!

In fact he was so proud of it that he PURPOSELU bought a new IXUS 75 7.1 mp to take pics! Roughly bout 1.2k? WTF!!! and he was so arrogant that;

Bro : So, when will we be going for YOUR convo?

Wait, r u gonna hv 1?

All i could do was stare n hope my eyes shoot out laser and a pair of holes into his skull!!!